OPERATION: cash money saved V.2.0

I have successfully consolidated 3 major debts I have into one monthly payment. I figure I will keep my wachovia account and money towards this will stay in there always since they automatically debit it out of the account. This is the first step in a series of money-themed projects I will be integrating into my life to get back on track. Other changes include:
+3 drank MAXIMUM when out and about. Never buying more than that EVER. This was my procedure when I was driving but I need to save cash and this is my biggest drain right now.
+a trip to Delaware for a carton of cigs and some cheap alcohol for home
+$60/week allowance
+consistent payments to the lawyer to get him paid off

Once this is done I can start my dental work and saving for my BMX. Then I can securely look for a job and get the F outta dodge.

****Meanwhile in more fun news****
I have got my ticket to COLDPLAY so I'm psyched about that. I am slowly getting more things out of storage and setting up my new room. I put up my sketches but I hate them so I may just take them all down and start over.
Jamil might be stopping up tomorrow as he plans to stay in Filthadelphia all night in anticipation for LIVE 8 on Saturday. I could care less about that as I now have KEOKI to look forward to.
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SUPERSTAR DJ KEOKI

Fuck LIVE 8--this is the party!!!
Indoor/Outdoor festival in Filthadelphia on Saturday from 9pm-6am. 3 reasons I'm going:
1==KEOKI (I may have had all my CD's stolen but he is the MAN)
2==ARMANNI (kickass d&b dj)
3==WINK

I'm going to try debt consolidation. I need to get my arse in gear with my money sitch. Hellz yeah.
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My secret Boyfriend

I moved into my new crib yesterday, after helping Mr. Cyphere (along with the rest of the APATHETIC ICON moving company) move into his new place and got a free lunch out of it. It was cool hanging with everyone--we met Paul's mum and sis @ the diner and just had an awesome time cracking wise (as the kids like to call it).

So on the moving kick, I got all my clothes, my comp., and a few other things out of my storage space and settled into Rae and Leah's house in Northern Liberties. I dig it b/c:
+I *heart* Northern Liberties
+I'm closer to work now and also close to Stefan, Ry and Ze Moto Kitty
+I can finally somewhat say I have a "home"

My rent is lower again which will help me save money--if only I can start actually saving it.

But now to my secret boyfriend. We had our first sorta "fight" yesterday but he has once again proven himself to be a mature and concerned person in my life. Its refreshing really. I don't feel bound to him and in truth I'm not at all--but that connection lies between us and I bide my time waiting for a chance to voice my heart to him and to everyone. Too soon, too much, too little, too late. I cannot stop my feelings.

Today everyone went swimming but i stayed behind to set up my computer and maybe go to THE WINCHESTER for some megatouch and a delightfully yummy club sandwich. Or maybe just sleeping and lounging on the couch.
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Well My Stars!!!

TGIF mothertruckers...that's all I gotta say. I have been coming in before 8am everyday since the towing incident to hopefully make a little spare cash so I can you know, survive. B/c as it stands right now I'm going to have charge a few things again and that really sucks. But I don't see any other way right now.

I talked to BOCKY today--he's gonna have a kid!!! That's just fuct. His Hep C is in remission so that's good. I just hope he's happy. And clean. Or as clean as he can be.

My head should be shaved but last night i watched THE BOURNE SUPREMACY and got quite lit. Its all Ry The Scot's fault--magnificent bastard.

Plans for this weekend are as follows:
==hanging with my secret boyfriend
==helping Mr. Cyphere move into his new house
==stop by No-Town for my mail
==get my computer out of storage
==begin helping Stefan with his resume

I figured out the majority of the bassline for "JENNY WAS A FRIEND OF MINE" b/c THE KILLERS are rokken. But LCD SOUNDSYSTEM has been stuck in my head for about a million years but I dont' have the CD so I only get it in small doses.

Today is so boring I just want to get out of here, get to Wachovia to put some money in my acct., drop my NEWS RADIO eppy's off at TLA (and rent something else if I can think of something good), get home and either head over to DRUIDS for a game of darts -or- stay in and go out later. I don't want to spend money like I have been doing--just get a lambic and play some darts. We can avoid the godforsaken hot shots that have been there like every night since we played them last. I feel like I'm being watched and judged on skill.

I'm so bored I can't even type. Now that's just sad.
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Remember: Automobiles and Brickthrower's don't mix!

My car got towed last night during an awesome Phillies game that I attended with Thee Irate One and one Sausalito. I left it parked somewhere I totally SHOULD NOT have left it--but you know me, ever tempting fate to see what kinda trouble I can get into next. My mum is a goddess among women and wire transferred me the money to pay to get it back but now I'm trying to score a ride to South Philly so I can pick it up. And I'm missing work b/c of it and trying really hard to motivate myself to get dressed and get going but I'm not really in the mood for tedious typing today.

SO WHAT TO DO?

=pick up the car and go into work for a half day
=pick up the car and come back home
=wait for Rae and have her go with me to get the car
=snuff it and get it over with

My head is pounding and my teeth are aching from my jaw-clenching. I should be a total and complete mess but I'm not and Cubed says its b/c I'm in a manic eppy right now and that would make a whole lot of sense--except that it only means I'm going to crash soon. But until then I really think I should just ride this high b/c its the only thing keeping me aloft above the shite below me.

Well that, and LCD SOUNDSYSTEM...but you knew that already didn't you?

I am going to destroy the world. That is all.
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NEWSRADIO--I dub you my SAVIOUR!!!

I have been watching the first season of NEWSRADIO nonstop. It is SOOOO much funnier than I remember. The cast is awesome:
ANDY DICK
STEPHEN ROOT
MAURA TIERNEY
PHIL HARTMAN (R.I.P.)
DAVE FOLEY
The hijinks that ensue on that show are beyond hilarious. I have rented it from TLA but Stefan swears he's going to buy it so I'll keep my fingers crossed.

I have alot of shite that sucks right now but I'm going to see the Phillies tonight and we have HALL OF FAME seats so FUCK YEAH!!! J-Z knows how to hook that shite up. I'm helping Mr. Cyphere move out on Saturday with the assistance of Go-To Guy Mr. Stefan Francois Grovier.

And really, that's about it besides too many bars, too much money spent, too much travelling, not enough job searching.
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Self-Torture Rules!

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I'm not gonna give you the satisfaction.
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So today--I went to bed @ 4:30am and got up at 10:30am. I stayed with Rae b/c of the driving factor. Woke up, went to the palm then bugged Ry and Stefan until they had the wedding to go to. I have clothes stashed at about 3 different houses, so I dyed my hair, showered, took a half hour to kill a scary ass roach (which Moto helped me with b/c she the bizzomb) chilled with Ze Moto then went to meet Johnny and Keg-Leg @ the Silk City Diner. Had some massive onion rings, cheese fries and a coke. Yum. Drove to South Philly to get my scripts filled, got some spare keys made (I have keys for the punk rock house in NO-town and Ry and Stefan's for Moto visits) and drove back to NORTHERN LIBERTIES. Applied for a Citizens Bank checking acct, paid some bills, wrote some emails. I'm happy. and I'm not. I feel like he's some mafioso that pretty much said "you're dead to me" and I'm never allowed to look or speak to him again. SEE THERE I GO AGAIN. fuck. fuck. fuck. Need new job like stat.

Me and Rae are meeting up later but she doesn't get done with work until 11pm or so. I want to go to South Street to buy a pillow case for my tempur pedic pillow and grab dinner. Although eating at ABBAYE sounds even better. Oh decisions decisions.

Daddy just called. He always makes me feel better. =o) There is no man out there that will ever top him in my book.

Oh! Nic might be getting me free dress for the wedding!!! Hook ups rule.
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The Tales of a Brickthrowing Nomad...

I am homeless--well not completely. I have a couple places that I'm crashing at right now; Kell's, Ry and Stefan's, etc. Steph's house fell through--things just weren't coming together like I wanted them too. I'm still stuck in this job and hoping the powers of Mike Oeming and/or John Layman will make it all better. So right now I'm just stagnant, not sure what the fuck I'm doing about anything.

Don't get me wrong, I'm having the time of my life. I enjoy the freedom of deciding to play darts @ 11pm and just doing it with no worries. Ze Moto Kitty seems so content @ Ry and Stefan's; she is doing her stretchy cat routine that is a sign of a happy cat (so sayeth the Cubed One).

I just hate not having a home or a place to call my own right now but in some ways I never really did so I guess its just the amplified version of that. I have scripts to get filled, things in storage I need to take a look at, etc and so on.

I have so many bruises--I think my anemia is probably worse than ever. My teeth are truly now rotting out of skull. I started my medical testing for a vaccine today--$50 for an hour of poking and prodding. ROCK N ROLL.

Tomorrow is me mum's birthday, she should be back from TENNESSEE by then. I have to decide when I want to go see her next. And I need to buy towels. B/c I have, like none.
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The *NEW* Obsession

Darts bitches. Rae brought over 2 sets so now we can bring our own to DRUIDS. We got schooled hardcore last night but some hustlers name Jonathon and Julian...but we're all getting better. The team of S&M (me and Sausalito) beat out R&R (Ry and Rae) so I think its safe to say that I have a new favorite game, and SURPRISE SURPRISE, it involves sharp pointy objects.

Also--new COLDPLAY is awesome but the new WHITE STRIPES is pure heaven. I am in love with JACK WHITE and his pencil moustache.

Lefty Joves left me a message in his forum...it was really nice. I don't know what to believe b/c he's sincere one moment and full of hate the next but regardless it was a nice thing to read. It made me feel sad and happy at the same time. That makes no sense but it does to me so fuck y'all. All my stuff is in storage mostly--just waiting for this house thing to come through--but waiting even more for MARVEL or DC to realize what they're missing and hire me.

Went to 2 BBQ's this weekend including a swank upper echelon work one with caterers and a moon bounce. I was playing with some girls and they had me jumping like a fiend. I am still sore. But it was sooooo much fun. You can tell my anemia is really kickin' my ass right now--i'm bruised from head to toe. It doesn't help I try to be cool and slap box with Stefan and Ry.

Tonight//Tonight
Kell's, shower, J-Z's and a little socializing. I'm functioning on 3 hours of sleep. And it is AWESOME!!!!
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The Agony...and The Ecstasy

The story so far:
Ze Brickthrower has been plotting her takeover of Marvel or DC in NYC. That would mean moving to New Jersey :ECH!: but I think I can deal. I want to be halfway in between Filthadelphia and New York. Of course, I need the job first but I have hopes and dreams (and even schemes) so if worse comes to worse, I'll start looking around @ the smaller companies as well.

I would talk about my recent life changes but as I don't exist to that person anymore, we'll just pretend like it never happened. You know me, you'll figure it out. Esp knowing that I have my dad driving up from York to get everything out of the hizzy--including Ze Moto--and into storage. The times, they are a-changin.

Ze Moto Kitty will be staying with Stefan and Ry the Scot until I am able to move in with Steph and her girlfriend--who have been gracious enough to offer up a room. They just need to get things ready for me and then I'm in. Until then I've been crashing with Kell in No-Town, playing lots of darts, and listening to THE KILLERS like they're the only band that exists.

Me and Cubed are cool even though we went through a rough spot a week ago--now if only our schedules would match up we would be able to talk on ze phone. I can't call him Slavedriver anymore but I can still call him my bitch. =o) HAHAHAHAHA.

Tonight I'm going out with the Punk Rock kids to price tattoos (not for me...not yet), dont' know what my plans are for the rest of the weekend except securing storage for my things, Fridays on Saturday, and a possible BBQ with Rae on Sunday.

Rokken...like Dokken even.
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Yesterday I fuct it all...

I have totally and utterly fucked up every part of my life in the span of about 8 hours.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore and my stomach feels like its never going to stop churning.

Oh yeah kittlings...independence bloody rules.
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