My Christmas Swag

From Friends:
+JAMESON whisky & sweat band--J-Z
+Pirate play set and pirate rum--Keg Leg Kell
+Playskool Pirate Set--Utendi
+Kill Bill--secret santa at work (not sure of her name, never met her)
+Hot Topic gift card--Donna
+Free Dinner--Bran
+Space Ghost Coast to Coast Vol. 2--Mike, the roomie
+card from Melissa and Mike

From Family:
+Printer/Scanner/Copier--Mum and Daddy
+$60--Shacky Red Handed
+$25--Aunt Mary
+$50 & earring set--Aunt Gerry
+Microvave, Candles and shower gel--JD's mum
+card from Leannie and fam

From JD:
+Harry Potter Hardcover book set
+3 Living Dead Dolls
+2 Video Games (Battle for Middle Earth [pc] and The Hobbit [ps2]
+Red Leather Motocycle Jacket--Sweet!
+Jack Skellington and Sally figures
+Pajamas from the Disney Store
+2 sweat bands (Batman symbol and "I love Pirates")
+DVDs (Blow, Gattaca, The Office complete set, O Brother Where Art Thou?, Da Ali G Show complete 1st Season, Eddie Izzard-Unrepeatable)
+the Nirvana box set
+Emily The Strange scarf

I finished the CCC today and an now going to type it out and send it to Alex Cubed for editing. Although I can now print my shite out myself and do the edits from him much easier now. Seeing it on paper is much easier than seeing it on the monitor.

I haven't talked to many people this weekend and really am just trying to keep myself busy and not think about calling the lawyer and esp. calling Gorman on Monday (tomorrow). If I thought I could fuck around and not really budget my money, the shite is really hitting the fan now. I really don't think I have much of any excuse to go out ever again. Except when I can trust myself to go dancing and just drink water so its cheap and beneficial to me. But will I ever get to that point? Aw...fuck. whatever. I'm home, and its warm and comfy and not fucking jail so I believe me when I say I'm happy. JD gave me a christmas that was grand beyond words and I'm so in love with him that just him being here with me is present enough. I just need to focus. Focus will be my goal in 2005.

And AC is next Friday and while I don't plan to drink I think that it will be decadent in every way and I can't wait. I have my cuban still waiting for me patiently.
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An Update for the One Person that reads my Blog...

X-MAS SHOPPING?--totally done (ok, 99% done)

DRINKING TONIGHT?--but of course

PIRATE RUM?--um...yes.

HANGING OUT WITH LOUIS CYPHERE?--yes, we be flying solo tonight as J-Z is going over to Jess' for a party. Keg Leg may make an appearance...and she's got some stuff i'd REALLY REALLY REALLY like to try.

I just haven't felt like writing much. Zoloft is making me loopy...and stuffies.

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Time to write Kittlings~

I finished my DODGEBALL review and wrote half of the CCC. Its going well and hopefully will be up by this weekend. Tonight I forfeit writing for an appt. with my shrink and possible drinks with the Comic Shop Crew.

I also have band practice Thursday and Friday off for some actual X-Mas Shopping.

I still have one more film review due this week and then 2 music reviews due on Monday. Um...STRESS MUCH???????

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Bored! BORED! CURSE!

So tonight I'm missing MARK MILLAR, "Special Guests", and riding in a White Limo around NYC. This eve marks the MILLARWOLRD piss-up...and I'm gonna sulk and skulk about in honor of me not being there. ::sigh::

I finished my DODGEBALL review which was an accomplishment in of itself considering the headache and lethargy I have going on today. It ended up being a pretty fun Friday; we met Cavs, Stefan and Jackie @ CHAMPPS for happy hour then J and S came back to the house, Keg Leg joined us and card playing ensued. Also drawing, listening to NAPSTER and lots and lots of drinking. I bestowed my CANON scanner to Stefan, who was quite happy, as was I as that clears him from my xmas list for good. I still need to get cards which I hope to do tomorrow when I return the movie to TLA video. And ROKKEN--the electronica music channel just started playing THE STREETS-"dont mug yourself"
OI! OI! OI! OI!

JD is out and about with Neary and Dane, Mike the roomie just went to Pathmark and I'm trying to decide if I want to watch RULES OF ATTRACTION or ETERNAL SUNSHINE...again. Oh decisions...decisions. My Moto Kitty knocked over my hanzo sword. JD is not liking her very much these days b/c of what she did to our one blind. I've cried about it even b/c he just seems so angry with her. Can't we all just get along?
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1-2-3-4-5-6 Bass

I’m at work. Today was our potluck/Christmas tree decorating thang. It was pretty cool…Jackie’s dad brought in a nice spread of sandwiches so I got a little bit of eat on, while JD got A LOT of eat on. I brought in my little lightbulb ornaments to hang on the tree, so I contributed and shite. Don’t ever say I don’t participate. I’m even doing the secret santa…I got the same person I did last year who asked for the exact same thing this year. No fun at all.

I need to get Christmas cards. Me mum insisted on getting me a printer, I couldn’t turn it down so I got one of those PRINTER/SCANNER/FAX/PHOTOCOPY combos, including the ability for me to dock my digi-cam and print out 4x6 photos. SWEET. Now I have a nice scanner that I want to re-gift to someone since I’m a cheap bastard this x-mas. So its just finding the person that needs/wants one.

I’m NOT going to NYC this weekend, which totally sucks, but goddamn it if money is a BITCH. I’m so annoyed with everything money-related. My bills went from manageable to insane. It doesn’t help when THE NOBLE COLLECTION decides to take their payment out for JD’s engagement ring whenever they bloody want. I am returning the dress I got for the party so that will be a little extra cutter. But in the end it comes down to me being a horrible manager when it comes to budgeting my money. I fuct up my finances…and I can’t stay in and pass up certain invitiations. And that’s the teenager in me.

I have finalized my CCC list and will be drafting the article this weekend. I also rented DODGEBALL and am drafting that review as well. JD is going to see OCEANS 12 tomorrow but I’m passing on that one; I only saw parts of the first one and wasn’t too into to. Tonight Keg Leg is coming over after dropping her man off @ a show (she is going through some shite right now and doesn’t want to run into people @ the show) to bring me an early prezzie of pirate rum. ROCK! But first, after work I’m depositing my much needed XMAS bonus check, then me, JD, Jackie and Stefan are going to CHAMPPS for a few drinks. Rock~n~Roll.

Me and LX still not talking. Val said hi to me yesterday. Honestly I don’t know if I have anything left to say to him. I think we’re both sick of each other.
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I was a question in Jim FUCKING Lee's Blog Giveaway

So JIM LEE was being an absolute dear and giving away his own copy of BATMAN #608, a comic that is going for around $900 on EBAY. He put up a quiz based on his blog, which I've been reading quite frequently as he is Rokken Like Dokken (and cute to boot). He even returned the favor and read mine concerning my band name issues. And then I saw this today:

THE FOLLOWING IS FROM http://gelatometti.blogspot.com:
"OK here are the 8 questions. Whoever posts the correct responses the
quickest in the comments section below wins a rare, signed copy of the
Batman RRP edition of Batman #608. Because the RRP bad boy is hard to find, the questions are gonna be just as tough.
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1: What issue of Batgirl is Ale Garza's first?
2: What size screen is Richard Friend's mini-DVD player?
3: "The Filthy Monkey, It plans" is in reference to what other website?
List the address specifically.

4: Mary Brickthrower keeps referring to her CCC...what does that stand for?

5: Ale's tagline is PSHOO, PSHOO. What marketing plan is this in reference to?
6: What language is 'Ruf An' in?
7: What is Carlos' nephew's first name?
8: There are numerous references to song lyrics in the TITLES of entries in
this blog. Find 5 of them and list the titles of the songs where the lyrics
came from AND the singer/bands that sang them. "
*****END of the JIM LEE GOODNESS*****

So even if me and LX have stopped talking and he quit the band, even if me mum is having her usual holiday depression, I will always be a question in JIM LEE's 1st Tuesday Blog Giveaway.
And that makes Ze Brickthrower smile her ass off!
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GLAMOUR's horoscopes said my December would suck...

So it must be true.

I DID got to OLD NAVY and buy a sweater and pants in my new bigger size b/c of my spare bike tire
I DID NOT go to LX's b/c the guitarist's sister got in some sort of accident. No Barbary or bandspeak
I DID go to the new CHAMPPS on delaware ave and spend too much money on food and wine.
I DID NOT watch all the KIDS IN THE HALL dvd's I've rented yet.
I DID watch CECIL B DEMENTED again however and loved it again.
I DID NOT get drunk tonight.
I DID have some pirate rum though.

I am a ghost of a real person. I'm not even real.
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When Alone Isn't Good Enough...

"Don't you know i never forgot you
Since We've gone our separate ways"

i hope you all know that. I sit here and wonder about all of you. It tears at my insides sometimes. I almost cried looking at a picture of one of you this morning. I mourn for others when I should be mourning for myself.

You have not been forgotten. I wrote poems about you, the entire subject of a many a journal entry is you. Sometimes a song comes on the radio and all of I can think of is sitting in a car next to you while that song played, or cheering at a concert with you and looking over and being so happy. Its those moments that make me remember so many good things about you.

Last night I spent too much money at the PONTIAC. Jackie and Stefan did stop by for a few drinks. Tonight is hopefully THE BARBARY...and THE BAND THAT SHALL NOT BE NAMED. I really want to go out for lunch but JD is out x-mas shopping so I'm off to find someone whom I can beg into being my friend for a while.

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My Office is in the Coldest House in the Room

Does this make ANY sense at all?

I have 2 zip-ups and my skull cap. My hands are aching from being cold and curved while typing my last film review. So this week it was BEFORE SUNSET and HERO. I liked them both. The linkage above will have them up eventually, I just sent to JD to finish the HTML magic that I have no idea how to do.

Last night Jackie came over and Ze Moto Kitty was abosolutely in love with her. JD called her traitor but it was seriously the most friendly and cuddly I've ever seen Ze Moto with anyone else but me and him. She brought over PIMP JUICE, which is bright green, and we mixed drinks and watched HERO. Then we got Mikey the roomie to play ASSHOLE with us b/c she totally got me into playing card games whilst drinking. Its mos def cheaper than going out. We had fun. Even if JD didn't want to play. I have ULTIMATES Vol. II #1 sitting in that room but I'm trying to finish THE BELL JAR which should have been done like 600 hundred years ago.

And I meant to post what Garbage song I was based on a Quizilla online test but I posted on my band blog instead. oops. Anyway, I think the song was called "Silence is Golden" and it says I should speak up more. Someone will listen eventually. They better dammit!!!

I'm listening to KEOKICLASH and the very best version of "Rippin Kittin" just came on. I have my headphones on and its so loud I feel like I'm inside the song. I absolutely lurve that feeling, like I'm walking around in it. Squishing it between my toes. How about some lyrics?

Mommy, can I go out and kill tonight?
I feel, I feel like taking a life.
Please, I wanna steal the kitchen knife
and feel, feel like taking a life.

Rippin kittin kidding on the run

Daddy, can I go and haunt tonight
like you do on Sunday mornings.
Honey, give me a real gentle knife
to feel, feel like taking my life.

Rippin kittin kidding on the run

Mommy, can I go out and kill tonight?
I feel, I feel like taking a life.
Please, I wanna steal the kitchen knife
and feel, feel like taking a life.

Rippin kittin kidding on the run
Mommy, daddy, please let me go

Tomorrow they are letting us out @ 3:30. They are having an open house of the new building so they want us dregs of corporate whoredom out before the customers get there. I dig it. JD had already taken off work but it looks like now we can head to South St early and get parking for some sushi and either CLOSER (mmm...I need some JUDE LAW) or FINDING NEVERLAND (a touching story with a Gomez-esque DEPP in it). I can dig it. I was going to finally get this mop in the back of my head shaved but Kay was all booked so I gots to wait until next Wednesday. I did get my hair dyed this week so no more roots. My dress for the MILLARWORLD pish-up is bought and paid for; although it has best arrive before next Saturday or I will cry. I want to get a nice piece of jewelry to go with it and perhaps an evening bag. I'm going for true formal, not just semi. Ze Brickthrower goes all the way.

SimplyJD.Online.Oi.Love is rockin' out. Why aren't you a member yet? If you are a member, then you fucking rock out with yer cock out. YARRR PIRATE! as Mr. Andeelee would say.

Oi! I meant to email Jeemy. Best be doing that and trying to decide if I want to shower before I go over to Stefan Francois Grovier's or wait till tomorrow morning. I think the morning shall win it all.
Rock'N'Roll.
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