!!!Christian-MANIA running wild!!!

And now, you're moment of CHRISTIAN:

Believe it or not Kittlings...its raining again on Filthadelphia's cold streets. I usually am quite partial to the rain, but everything in my house feels damp and cold. We need to get the windows properly insulated (((not to mention I need to get my window fixed since I have a HUGE GAPING HOLE where my A/C was, horribly patched up by one "non-dextrous Brickthrower"))). Tonight is cleaning night for the ladies of South Street. Rach hooked it up with some spicy tuna rolls from work, she's also picking up the wine (prohibition starts Nov. 1st) and it looks like we have a working CD player downstairs now so I can try to force everyone to rock out to some Electro this evening.

Before we begin the cleaning I'm meeting Bill for coffee somewhere on South St. Bill is JD's former roommate and always a good time.

Last night I was supposed to stay in but boredom and loneliness creeped up on me and I ended up going to the New Wave to play Quizzo. I did alright for being by myself (neither Dave nor Jonathan made it out)...made some new friends to tag along with some other lonely monday night, and drank way too much chard. I watched THE BROWN BUNNY, which succeeded in only making me lust after VINCENT GALLO more due to the equipment he's packin' downstairs. And that's all I'm going to say about that.

Today me and Matty are emailing back and forth and it looks like THE BATES MOTEL is on for Saturday. We have a back-up place as well in case its rainy and gross out. Fun should be had by all! As for Thursday, I have my next P.O. appt. in the morning, then after work I'm meeting Gena (the other bridesmaid) at Johnny Rockets. We still need to find a ride to the rehearsal dinner but we'll figure something out. I have to get my nails done still, but its probably better than I wait on that so I don't fuck them up.

Does someone have the REAL TOM GREEN on their Myspace list? I'm scouting for him...and any other comedians/fave actors anyone has. TOM G., like DANE, is funny to me b/c of their articulation and tone when they speak. I'm way into that.

Blah...almost time to go back to work. I'm on edge today for some reason. And its not like getting out of work will be any more fun b/c that's when cleaning commences. Its sad to say, but I hope i get bathroom duty again. Doing the floors SUCKS!
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Currently listening: Origin of Symmetry By Muse Release date: By 20 September, 2005

CHRISTIAN BALE--the new Brit Obsession

Current mood: content

As if my love for Christian Bale could grow any more, I watched BATMAN BEGINS this weekend and it was fucking brilliant. The best BATMAN film ever made. CILLIAN MURPHY was quite the scary villain, and CHRISTIAN played both brooding and playboy with the greatest of ease. He is going to surpass JUDE soon as my favorite Brit-Boy...I can see it in the future.

So Reverend Dave Johnson, a MYSPACE pal that is an artist and recently had his animation picked up for CARTOON NETWORK (coming in Jan 2006). And guess who is going to be a background character on an eppy?? Here's a hint:

Pretty ain't it??? I can dig it...and don't ever say my hanzo sword didn't get me anywhere!!!
So this weekend was pretty eventful. Here's a quick wrap up of the events, in chronological order:
FRIDAY--I took the train with Stefan into the suburbs, proceeding to WILLOW GROVE and meeting up with Matthew. He had planned debauchery, just as I wanted to partake in, starting with dinner at the Hibachi grill. Japanese food--this boy knows how to make an impression!!! We were doing sake bombs with Asahi and all the food was decadent. We then took a detour to Kat's house, a girl with alot of similar interests as me, then headed to the Bent Elbow with some of Matt's friends in tow. Finally we crashed at Joe's house, all of us passing out to TRUE ROMANCE on the TV. I had a smashing time and have already planned to see Matthew again this Saturday.

SATURDAY: Matt dropped me off @ home and I pretty much went straight back out into the rain to get my shoes for the wedding and a Halloween costume. Rethinking the idea of what I should be, I decided to get a Little Miss Muffet costume. Its SOOOO short, I have to buy some booty shorts to wear b/c I'm sure at some point my ass is going to make an appearance at the Dracula's Ball. The outfit is too cute, I got a petticoat to make the skirt poof out and thigh highs with little white bows on them. I want to get some pink ribbon to put my hair in pig tails. I honestly can't wait--HALLOWEEN is only a week away! So yeah, I rented some movies (2 MST3K flicks and THE BROWN BUNNY--Vincent Gallo's latest) then got soaking wet getting a cab to D&B's where I met up with Nic, Lindsday and their mothers. This is where I met Gee, a bartender in the midway that set my heart ablaze. He was just a cutie all around. I chatted him up and gave him my number. I don't think he's going to call me but heck! At least I tried. I left D&B's when Gee got off his shift and met up with Keg Leg @ Mannys. Very drunk, I passed out on the couch shortly thereafter.

SUNDAY: I woke up around noon with a pounding headache but made some soup and drank some water to remedy that. Took the subway down to South Philly to hang out with JD; we watched BATMAN BEGINS, EQUILIBRIUM (he loved it...I have converted another!), and the MITCH HEDBURG dvd I bought. I read some comics and made shrimp scampi and salad for dinner. Moto got a new cat toy so she was lovin that...and slept on my lap everytime I sat on the couch. I had a breakdown at one point and cried due to stupid expectations. Me and JD are really good friends and its going to stay that way...being single sucks sometimes but that doesn't mean I need to rush into anything. Its just funny how much you realize something is worth when its gone.

So today, work, which is hella boring, I'm sending random emails to Stefan, Matthew and Lauren. Emailed Warren about my cartoon debut, and brought in some new music to listen to. Tonight I'm just chillin' at home, watching movies and reading. I want to be well into GOBLET OF FIRE by the end of this week. Mum got our HP tickets--can't bloody wait!!!
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|||The New Review|||

Current mood: naughty

I have anothew review up on THE EASY LIFE. Check it out here====> EQUILIBRIUM <===click me!

This weekend was good even though I was nauseous most all the time and still hacking up a lung. Friday I stayed in until about 10pm when I went to CHEERS with Jonathan and Rachel, Saturday I spent the day with JD watching THE OMEN iii and THE AVIATOR. THE AVIATOR is a fucking brilliant film. I regret not seeing it in the theatre. DICAPRIO is a good actor. YEAH I FUCKING SAID IT!!! You wanna start something? THE OMEN iii was a bit of a let-down, well the ending was anyway.

On Sunday I took my A/C out of my window only to find that my window doesn't go down all the way. So using a hand towel, some duct tape, and a cardboard box wrapped in a trash bag I was able to fashion myself a crappy little window covering until we can get the landlord to come check it out. I saw Jonathan again later that night, we went to Mannys for a few and then drank SMOKING LOON wine and watched EQUILIBRIUM (of which you can read all about by clicking the link above!!!). Jonathan had a bootleg of BATMAN BEGINS but it wouldn't read in my PS2 so I'm quite sure it must've been a DVD-ROM or something.

Yesterday I almost went completely postal at work, but finally caved in and got my meds and some mucinex as I'm still a snot machine. I went over to JD's for dinner and started the daunting task of reading my huge stack of comic books. I also got to see the newest EXTRAS eppy as well as the newest ROME. Both were beyond good. I left JD's around 10:30 and waited for a bus, took a shot of Nyquil and fell asleep reading HARRY POTTER iii. They are auctioning off tickets right now for the world premiere of the film in NYC--so if anyone wants to get me an early X-Mas present, I would recommend this. 2 tickets for the going bid of $6000. Come on! You know you want to!

That's about it. My spirits are higher than they've been lately, I'm feeling alot better all around about things.
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MUSE lyrics--The New Obsession

"Hysteria"
it's bugging me,
grating me
and twisting me around
yeah i'm endlessly
caving in
and turning inside out

'cause i want it now
i want it now
give me your heart and your soul
and i'm not breaking out
i'm breaking out
last chance to lose control

it's holding me,
morphing me
and forcing me to strive
to be endlessly
cold within
and dreaming i'm alive

'cause i want it now
i want it now
give me your heart
and your soul
and i'm not breaking down
i'm breaking out
last chance to lose control

and want you now
i want you now
i'll feel my heart implode
and i'm breaking out
escaping now
feeling my faith erode
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LOST and Circumstance

!!! [LOST SPOILERS AHEAD] !!!

A couple things lead me to believe that HURLEY’s dream left elements that dwell in truth…SUCH AS:

+the milk carton HUGO drinks from has a picture of WALT with “MISSING” above it. But HUGO has been on the island the entire time and doesn’t know the fate of the boat crew yet. So how could his subconscious make that assumption unless it is showing the FUTURE as well as the PRESENT?

+the “JIN CAN SPEAK ENGLISH” theory—I still believe this. I just watched the episode that I was referring to last week regarding JIN understanding the SAWYER, MICHAEL and JACK yelling about him on the beach. It was actually the eppy that it is revealed that SUN knows English; and the beach scene is very compelling and substantial with evidence that Jin can understand English…but the other scene that is the clincher for me is when SUN is explaining to JIN why she didn’t leave him at the airport in Sidney. She talks to him in English. Why would she do this if he couldn’t understand it? He doesn’t stand there and ask her to speak in Korean—he just listens to her. BECAUSE HE CAN UNDERSTAND AND SPEAK ENGLISH DAMMIT!!!

+HUGO has this dream before JACK puts him in charge of the food, NOT after. This only leads me to believe that the dream was more PROPHETIC than a comment on HUGO’s psyche (albeit he was going to torch the food just so he wouldn’t have to deal with it which is pretty messed up anyway).

I agree with Sweet Lou’s idea that THE OTHERS are not the people that found JIN, SAWYER and MICHAEL. They are also hiding from them in a bunker on the other side of the island…the question is, do they have a button they have to push as well? And why did I think ROSE had died? And what caused those people to go all LORD OF THE FLIES primal quicker than our LOST group???

This show is becoming more and more of a mindfuck and its messing with my head. But I’ll hand over half my brain to the TV show if it stops those inner voices for a while.
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M.I.A.

I am just starting to establish an identity of my own so its been very hard these past few weeks. I’ve been going in between total OK’ed-ness with my situation to utter loneliness and longing. I don’t know what’s going on right now except that I have said this before and I’ll say it again: I have never needed to be alone more in my life than right now. To have these things thrown at me (my uncle’s death, my sister’s problems, my worries over certain friends’) and not have the usual support of a boy to get me through it, to help me wallow in it, has made it roll off my back a bit easier.

My support system used to be the other person I was with, not my own mind or my own skeletal system. So these parts of my body have become severely atrophied. In need of repair and strengthening. Old habits die hard…but I have been able to say “no” to relying once again on someone else for everything. I can’t fall back into the same pattern, even if the variants have changed. The constant is that I am still fucked up and have no hope of redeeming myself unless I start thinking about who the hell I am.

As if someone so self-involved could have no idea who they are. Well I assure you that this can be a very real problem. A problem that I am struggling with now with such disdain and heartache that its making my jaw-clenching even worse, my drug taking stilted and sporadic, my life a series of fuzzy moments marked by the usual activities of work and DVD watching. I am going to figure this thing out—I vow that if I can promise nothing else.

I had a 3 day weekend b/c of COLUMBUS DAY so yesterday me and Frank went to the FRANKLIN INSTITUTE to see the BODYWORLDS exhibit—plasticized muscle and bone in various poses and shapes; I was nauseous most of the time. I would be lying if I didn’t say I overdid it this weekend, coming home on Monday I just was glad to be home in my bed, alone for a bit until about 9pm when I couldn’t stand it anymore and just went to the NEW WAVE to read and grab a couple glasses of wine. I oftentimes don’t even need my own company; just being around other people is enough social contact for me at times. I was in bed before midnight but had a horrible time sleeping; waking up freezing and text messages that I got hours later from when they were sent was the reason.

I have plans to write about the new FRANZ for JD’s zine-site so I think going home and watching the DUAL DISC DVD stuffies will be the first thing I take care of tonight. I shouldn’t go out tonight at all—I’m pretty sick with some sort of cold or infection—NYQUIL induced sleep may be the cure-all for what ails me these days.
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I Called it!! [LOST talk]

Current mood: awake
POSSIBLE SPOILERS AHEAD KITTLINGS!!!!
If you look at the episode, the watch episode I believe, where JIN is on the beach being attacked by MICHAEL, there is a split second where they give you a voice over of what is being said as JIN would hear it.

MICHAEL and SAWYER are screaming at each other, and oddly enough JIN hears their fighting in his native language of Korea. This led me to believe that he was translating and that he could speak english as well. This was pushed aside after he NEVER admitted to SUN or anyone that he could, even after getting himself into extreme circumstances.

And then, on the previews for next week's LOST, they show JIN speaking perfect English. A dream? Perhaps. But I'm telling you, I've been calling this for awhile. JIN can speak English--he's a fucking gangster for crying out loud and he knows when to keep his mouth shut and when to talk.

The scene between DESMOND and JACK in the woods where JACK almost breaks down when speaking about his wife further proves Mr. Cyphere's theory that JACK's wife is dead from his father's medical negligence.

Louis also just noted that all the numbers add up to 108, which is what the countdown clock in "THE SWAN" resets to.
OH YEAH--I'm writing for another blog right now--putting up reviews: The Easy Life
That's all for now.
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Currently listening: Elephant By The White Stripes Release date: By 01 April, 2003

The answer to the eternal question...

WHAT IS ZE BRICKTHROWER GOING TO BE FOR HALLOWEEN?
The Answer:

Malice in Wonderland Bitches. Ordering it Friday.

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October is HERE! And my home away from home.

Current mood: mellow
The STARBUCKS that is new to the SOUTH ST area can go screw. I asked for JAVA CHIP, b/c I like the espresso beans they blend into the frappucino. The guy took forever, and blended it so much that there was no espresso bean goodness except @ the very bottom and by then I was quite sick of it.

This may be a minuscule thing to complain about—but it’s the little things that kill.

My weekend was pretty good, you know if you don’t count my uncle dying on Friday and SUICIDE GIRL (that's my new nickname for the current bane of my existence) calling me to tell me about her latest antics (SUICIDE GIRL is scaring me but I’ve been told by everyone she is just trying to get attention so I’m letting her insanity sorta play itself out). I’ve had to live with a certain amount of craziness due to my mother and my own mental issues but I never EVER thought I would be watching the total disintegration of this person. I don’t even know what to believe anymore. My uncle is younger than my father, and got cancer and passed rather quickly after being diagnosed, and instead of trying to get through this with SUICIDAL GIRL—she is playing her own game of “PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!” and I am just sick of talking about it so I’ll shut up now.

Friday night I hung out with Keg Leg. We went to MANNYS and THE NEW WAVE, then Kell left for home, and I went to TATTOOED MOMS and back to MANNYS. I was regretfully asked to leave after falling asleep at the bar. Yes kittlings, this is how I cope with my problems. Awesome isn’t it?

Saturday I woke up with a killer hangover, went to INFINITE to get a new disc for the back of my piercing (it popped off the night of THE KILLERS show), then walked to OLDE CITY for lunch. I came home, hung out, made another outing to RITTENHOUSE for some swag @ Wonderland, then met Frank @ MANNYS for less drinking than the night prior, but more conversation with my 2 favorite barkeeps—Brendan and Rachel. These 2 are right up Ze Brickthrower’s alley; we talked EXISTENZ and CRONENBERG, Rachel and I did shots of Jameson, Mike the bouncer introduced himself and said it was cool that I was napping @ the bar the night prior. I have been privy to having my own “bar” before; what with palling around with JD and getting the hook-ups that go along with frequent visits and good tipping. MANNYS is now ‘my bar’, and I dig that Rachel and Brendan make me feel more like a friend than a customer. Frank and I didn’t stay too long—he has doggy obligations that keep him from staying in Filthadelphia too long—we ended up going back to his place in JERZEE and falling asleep to NAPOLEON DYNAMITE. This is the 2nd attempt for us to watch this movie together and this is the 2nd time we’ve both passed out during it.

On Sunday we had breakfast and I got dropped off. There was some music festival going on RIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW so I attempted to nap but it was kinda hard. I went over to JD’s around 3-ish and we went to PATHMARK for grub (JD made some excellent shrimp alfredo); I watched HOME MOVIES season 2 and napped by myself and with Moto on me, then it was time to watch MR DANE COOK headline the INSOMNIAC TOUR on Comedy Central. He was gorgeous and hilarious—it was a good show all around and I’m just so glad to see DANE finally getting his dues. He’s the fucking man.

I left right after the show was over as it was 11pm…got a bus, texted Rachel @ Mannys and made my way back to my home away from home for a few drinks, some conversation with NOLAN (another local), Rachel and Bren. I stayed until Rachel was done her shift and then had her over for some cider and EDDIE IZZARD, which she absolutely loved. Hopefully she can make it out to THE CORPSE BRIDE, which I will be seeing tomorrow with Carey and her little sister. The best part of this being that I will get to see the HARRY POTTER trailer on the big screen, a more exciting prospect than one can ever imagine.

So although I was down on the female of the species last week, I’ll give Rachel a shot. She’s a doll. And tall, and sorta gothy, and super cute too. But you know, that’s just an added bonus.

Tonight: I must make decisions. TO QUIZZO OR NOT TO QUIZZO??? I’m thinking staying in, SHAUN OF THE DEAD may be in order and I’m sure my body wouldn’t mind drying out a bit. Frank and I haven’t made plans for this week but I’m thinking I’ll probably see him Thursday if not sooner for lunch. As tomorrow is movie night, then LOST on Wednesday. I asked him to be my date for the wedding and he agreed, barring any traveling he might be doing. Things are going smashing between me and him and he’s just a swell guy. We’re just having a good time spending time together.

I have successfully wasted a good hour @ work writing out this entry. Awesome! Awww, yes. I will be attending DRACULAS BALL with LX and Val (the ticket is my late birthday prezzie) so the real question is—WTF am I going to be for HALLOWEEN??
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Currently listening: Elephant By The White Stripes Release date: By 01 April, 2003